I have to admit that I have been pretty scattered lately. I do okay when things are nice and spacious and have room to breathe, but as soon as there is a pile-up of priorities I kind of fall apart. I have been managing to get all of the things done that have external deadlines, but now I’m paying the price by being frazzled and unfocused, unable to figure out what is most important right now. It’s like my TV signal is fuzzy and no matter how I tweak the antennae, I can’t bring it in any clearer.
I had a huge realization today about why that is. I shared it on Facebook, but it just seemed too important not to share again here. Here it is:
90 Days of Thankfulness, #56
In case there is any question, my life is not all sunshine and rainbows. I worry sometimes when doing a practice like this that people will think that everything is happy happy joy joy for me all the time. Of course, like all of us, it’s not. There are ups and downs and lots of in between. I am not trying to be relentlessly positive. However, I re-learn over and over and over again that it is my desire that makes me unhappy. Wanting something that I don’t really need. Not that there’s anything wrong with having preferences. I would prefer that my house was clean. I would prefer that some projects were done. But today, after a really good conversation with a friend, I realized that I need to continue to focus on slowing down and appreciating the moments. Thanksgiving is today, Christmas is coming, and of course, I have lots of ideas about all the things I want to do. But guess what? We’ll eat food with family. We’ll set up a tree and lights outside. There will be thoughtful, simple presents under the tree. We’ll bake cookies and be silly, do some big puzzles, and we’ll snug and play and read and sing and laugh. I don’t have to do a SINGLE OTHER THING to have a lovely holiday season. So I am off the hook, and so are you. Yes, it’s nice to do extra decorations or every activity, but guess what? You can skip all of that and have a really nice holiday and still be feeling all the love when it’s over, instead of being frazzled and angry and stressed. That is my goal for the next few weeks, and this realization is the big, big thing I am thankful for today.
It might seem obvious to you, but that was a huge, huge realization for me.
So, with that, here is my Thanksgiving wish for you:
Dear friends, I hope that you can release all of your expectations for your holiday season, and just flow through them with love and light in your heart. I hope that I can do the same. I will need many reminders. But just imagine if we all, in one collective outbreath, decided to let it all go and just BE. Be with ourselves, our loved ones, our ideals and our beliefs. Just spending time, quality time, with each of those things. Wouldn’t that be lovely? And wouldn’t that be worth so very much more than any decoration or trinket? I believe so.
Let’s help each other remember what is nearest and dearest this holiday season.
All my love,